im back from school :D guess im thinking too much the last few days & sorry about it ):
&iloveyou bodohhhhh! :D haha! i slept at 630! -.- woke up at 12 , because i have to go for remidal . when to school was suppose to meet joanna first & talked to her for awhile i haven't seen her for days! ): super saddening - then end up didnt, teacher saw me and pulled me up to class ): SORRY JOANNA! alright? haha! class ended @ 130. went home, then went to fushan for basketball then there was not many people there, then came home first & going back later with norman & baosheng around 4-5+ :D
12th-GALACTICOS soccer match in school
15th-V3 soccer match near alexandra hospital :D
anyone wanna support? haha! supporters are greatly welcomed :x haha!
i haven been playing soccer like for few weeks already ): im afraid i have no stamina , but nevermind, perhaps i will just run around & play till i DIE OUT OF OXYGEN! :D haha! i will then be the first person who die just because of not having enough oxygen to breath while playing soccer! :D hahahahaha! how cool is that , LOL! laughs*

it 3plus in the morning & im blogging! :D haha!


LOVES!
i have been sleeping late the last few days, maybe im thinking stuffs . i dont know why ~
i told you everything what really happened, taking up your time when you're suppose to sleep but you stood up listening to my problems, thanks alot of that! & i feel there's nothing more i can tell you about because i told you like everything :DDD i just hope that i will be the first person you turned to when you're down or whenever you need me , because you're the first person i always turn to no matter what happens to me, when im down or whenever i need you :D alright? i known you long enough & know you very well too, knowing your inside outs & maybe you know about my everything .we shared mostly all of our problems together & yes, indeed. I promise you that i will be there for you whenever you need me taking care and loving you without fail , ring me up anytime when you need me , anytime! :D I really thank you alot for caring and loving me all this while & carry on this way. I apologise for the things i made you upset or anything . forgive me for my stupid behaviour or whatsoever .
i sometimes feel that im a burden to you, im like always bugging you every single day without fail, im super irritating . that's why i feel that im useless because all i know is just bugging you all along . Anyway, from the bottom of my heart I LOVE YOU BUDDY! :D we have been best buddies for months & i know we will never leave each other no matter what happens :D isn't it? reply me eh! :D













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As every day passes by i will still remember every little words being said

slept at 4 woke up at 2plus? i have been sleeping late nowadays ): i dont why? perhaps im thinking too muchhh! ): but nevermind :D woke up , then went to 883 for lunch with tiongda & all then slacked at playground/under block talking craps then went home at 7pm :D
my whole body feel so weak, wanting to breakdown :D super coolllll! haha!
i got nothing to blog already :D
goodbyeee then!










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STUPID DREAMS! occurs every night - sometimes i have doubts about those
morning- woke up at 9, have to wake up early because i have to go to CHAICHEE there for wedding buffet :D many people are getting married this month -.- i have to attend 3 weddings ): got everything ready and left to bishan first to relative house then went over to chaichee at 12+
reach there around 1? when i enter the house, my granduncle super funny lah! LOL! :D he wish me HAPPY NEW YEAR? haha! he said HAPPY NEW YEAR! -.- haha , he's 70+ years old. super funny, it was a wedding day & he said happy new year!? haha! ate lunch there & all i did was watching tv, switching channel from 53-56! -.- haha! then went home around 3+ , took train back with mother then went home. went home i slept for 1hour woke up & showered everything & have to be at marina mandarin for wedding dinner, it was the same wedding :D haha! on the way there JAM! -.- due to the stupid freaking ERP that people hate, heard over radio that people are trying to avoid the ERP so they do not have to pay road taxes! WTH! it's only a few dollars, also canot afford maybe only $1-2. whatever, Reached there, WOAH! many people , heard there was 500 tables, 1table costing $1000! OMG! making it $50000 just for tables! :D hahaha! walk around saw the wedding photos, talk to cousins all, then went into the ballroom for the wedding ceremony :D
guess what? they started serving dishes @ 830! -.- i was super hungryyyyyyyyyyy! ):
crap with cousin aaron, haha! talking about the waiter, haha! the waiter name DONGBO! -.- china freak? his voice super softttttt! like AHGUA :x my dad was there forcing my little cousin to drink wine & beer, threatening him saying: "if you dont drink you dont come to this table" haha! because my little cousin was sitting different tables from us :D im not sure if he drank or not & i don't care, nevermind :D i took one pic with my dad and brother together then i said woah! so gay:x then my dad wanted to kiss my brother -.- LOL! haha! & I KEEP GOING TO TOILET! -.- because i keep drinking orange juice :x haha! stupid me ): IM STUPID DAMMN STUPID NOWADAYS OR EVEN USELESS! forget it , dinner & all ended at 11+ - shake hands with the bride & bridegroom & took pictures with them then went home , in the car on the way home i think my dad was drunk? crazy! suddenly he talked about Old Chang Kee, bringing me to the art museum someday? & comparing Europeans with Singaporeans for nothing! -.- hahaha! FULL OF SHIT! :D haha! nevermind.
20NOV-23NOV : leaving to thailand-phuket, goodbyee! ):
sometimes i wonder, what will happen with i leave this world & never come back. wouldn't it be good? im just a burden-
pictures: upload some other day , uploading of pics super slow! ):
listen this song : http://youtube.com/watch?v=jy6L_bt6Flk

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i feel that my life is seriously nothing to me, everyday i have the same routine, i feel that my life is surrounded by nothing, wanting to end it all. Made me so useless & i cant do anything much only words being said & actions were not done, isnt that useless? im becoming a peice of crap as each day passes. nothing but crap. goodbyeeeeeeee people ~ perhaps this will be the last....
iloveyou








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To me being worthless is something to be proud of
woke up early gave morning call @ 830 went back to sleep till 1 ,I HAD ONE STUPID DREAM -.- sigh . nevermind :D suppose to go to grandmother house@ 1plus , but my mother and sister left first , my brother & dad was at home. @ 3 went to fushan with tiongda and norman and played basketball for awhile because i have to go to grandmother place for dinner, rs came down around 4-5+? played till 6 then walked home alone while the rest of them stayed & played till night :D left home around 7+? reached @ 8 , ate dinner talked to cousin all then went home around 9+ because brother have to go home early because he's having his O's tmr :D
tmr - wedding buffet in @ 12+ & wedding dinner @ 730 at marina mandarin
GOODBYE! :D
>sometimes those thoughts i got maybe will just come true anytime, i may not even know but im ready for it facing it without any worries :D that's all i can give to you, to me i bet i worth nothing but just crap, perhaps only like a 1cent coin :D haha! but nevermind, i got nothing & im only at the disadvantaged. i give up & look forward to what happinesses can do :D laughters & joy is what i want & having it lightens up my life :D thanks so much for those- loved! (:





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slept at 3 woke up at 10 :x was webcaming ytd :x & today i dont know wht happen to my webcam ): haha! meet rs,bs,andy,norman @ 12 to queensway & then to town :D got ready everything went to norman house wait for him for 1/2hr for him to change & everything & he said he don't want to go? -.- WTH! haha! he say NO SHIRT TO WEAR -.- KISS MY ASS :D haha! nevermind , walked over to woodlands control station & meet rs,andy & bs. norman gave me $50 to buy a T-shirt for him. So, went over to queensway then ate lunch first at MACDONALDS. & guess what i got a stupid freaking FLU! -.- woah! ): & i SWEAR i was super moody ): walked around shopped for norman shirt , in the end bought a $10 t-shirt for him :D haha! thn cab back to queenstown mrt control station then went down to town, went to fareast first & walked around , my flu was getting worse ): my whole nose were red :x sighhhhh ~ & my whole body was feeling weak , finding place to sit down also no place! ): then walked over to cine & i was complaining :x saying CINE SO FAR!!!! ): super moody lahhhh! they were cracking jokes & i wasn't laughing at all . EMO EMO EMO! :D haha , nevermind . reached cine, slacked at kopitiam waiting for joanna,xm,warren & ck to come over to play pool togther at cuppage :D took pictures crack a little jokes, i was like spending most of my money on tissuessss ):
& IM BROKE ): sigh . went over to cuppage around 5+? when joanna.xm & warren reached , at cuppage my flu was even worser! ): NO MOOD TO TALK & PLAY! ): sigh , but played a few games & was super fustrating ): played finished around 8+ went back cine for dinner :D then joanna asked us to watch movie at causeway point :D then went back to watched THE GAME PLAN @ 945! luckily there's still tickets :D haha! SUPER FUNNYYYY! :D haha , joanna & i was super noisy lah! :x haha! we kept laughing :x I LAUGH SHE LAUGH :D hahah! went to norman house to give his shirt and then walked home with ck & rs :D pictures;
ASSHOLES! :D





retarded face :D
Andy! :D






















>Images & words flashes through my mind, i dont know why? it kills me inside to see those, but i know it could never happen, i know it well maybe you know it well too :D im not sure, happinesses is all i can give, nevermind . im far worser then you, you're way to good than me you deserve more than anyone else :D im just nothing, worth nothing, my words were just too cold & flat :D goodbyeeeeee!










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ytd - went for basketball from 8-6 :x 10 hours leh! haha! whoooos ~ I HAVEN BEEN PLAYING FOR LONG HOURS :D played with norman,tiongda,rs,andy. Rs & andy left home @ 1030 because they had to go back to school for stupid remidals -.- haha! then cody,rs,andy came to find us and played around 1+. THEN ASS CODY WENT HOME around 3+ say its raining when it was only drizzling for 10mins -.- nevermind , then went home with tiongda at 6 . reach home was super tired & my whole body was aching all over :x & i slept damnn earlyyyyyyyy ! :D 730 i slept :x haha!
today - slept at 730 woke up at 10+! :x 15hours of sleep lehhh! HOW COOL IS THAT! :D haha! super boringgggg ~ dont intend to go anywhere today , super lazy & tired at most only go down for lunch :D haha!
i dont know why sometimes i can't stand it and just feel like ignoring you, every actions & words were being followed, nevermind , forget it :D i will just play by ears & tolerate it, haha!
tmr - queensway @ 12+ & then town around 3-4+
anybody wanna goooooo? :D tag & tell me --->
alright , byeeeee!






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